Things I wish I could say.

I remember everything about you.

I remember every time we kissed.

Every.

Single.

Time.

I replay the moments in my head.

Constantly

Thinking.

Hoping.

Wishing.

Praying.

That you'll kiss me again.

I spend hours thinking about the way you look at me.

I spend days thinking about the twinkle in your eye,

I spend years thinking about your smile before you'd pull me close.

I remember everything about you.

Every.

Little.

Thing.

"Friends"

If you can't stay friends with someone because of who they are or are not with then you weren't really a friend of mine in the first place. I wasn't aware that we were still in high school.

Do they make maps for this?

I don't know where I'm going anymore. I wish I had a map. Or GPS.

I can't believe

I can't believe that I didn't see you before you left. I feel terrible. All over some stupid reason and the word "no". Driving out there today made me realize that, and talking to you didn't help. I having you around, talking to you all the time. You were always good to me, and I didn't return the favor.

I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Joel : "I walked out the door, there's no memory left."

Clementine : "Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let's pretend we had one."

[Joel comes back]

Clementine : "Bye Joel."

Joel : "I love you."

Clementine : "Meet me in Montauk."

Love Will Fuck Us Apart.

You and me go together like carrots and peas.

We should be a happy family.

Or a traveling travesty at least.

And love will fuck us up.

Love will fuck us up.

Breathe in deep.

Breathe as deeply as you can breathe.

Breathe deep till you're drunk with glee.

Breathe deep till you're drunk with glee.

And love will fuck us up.

Love will fuck us up.

No Mo' Local Music.

I'm recently upset by the fact that all of the good local bands aren't around anymore. We used to have so many good ones. I'm really upset by this. What about Baron Von Bear, Band Marino, Concept Cars and the Heathens.

Now all we have is stupid "hard core" bands. Fuuuuuuuck.

I am leaving Orlando at the end of these last two semesters. I am filing out my applications to FSU, UF and UNF this week.

I'm done.

It's sad, so so sad.

It's sad that it ended this way.

It's sad that you won't let me be.

It's sad you feel the need to make me angry.

It's sad that i don't know what I'm doing anymore.

It's sad that I'm still grateful for one out of four.

I CANT TRUST ANYONE IN THIS TOWN.

Public Service Announcement

If you have to obtain your taste in one or more of the following from other people, you are in turn NOT original. (nor your own person for that matter) :

1. guys: this includes taking guys, taste in guys from other people.

2. music: if you change your musical taste based on the people you hang out with that day.

3. friends: having friends only for the idea of name dropping or 'knowing everyone in a place'.

disclaimer- just because you're friends with someone on myspace/facebook does not mean you know them, are friends with them, or that they know who you are.

4. clothing: if you wear things that other people wear with you're around them, congrats. i.e. band shirts around people who wear band shirts, or shows where said shirts will be warn.

5. your personality: if you're a 'badass' around 'hardcore' kids, if you're a drunk when downtown, ect. anything that isn't really your personality, but more so just something you put on to feel wanted in a certain place.

5. every single other thing that makes up your personality that isn't on this list that you change around certain people - mannerisms, slang words, personal choices.

..and - end rant.

Drama

Drama, Drama, Drama.